where'd we go?

I can't take a nap today. my head aches. i got not a wink last night among the fucking and the fueding. no, really. tossed off all my clothes after one rousing round of scrabble. he put down ex. i added the s and we decided that indeed was a much better game. this bottle of vodka has lasted for awhile. i haven't been here. i have been drinking princely sums and not cleaning my apartment in favor of this boy. this pot smoking prince valiant. the rebel, the joker, the villian all rest in one body, til we meet again in 4 hours. he gives me less than nothing and i take it and pay. meanwhile where are things going with this new golden boy. he seems genuine but what the fuck does that mean after a week? birth control and a move back uptown, i guess. for now. passed out at around two only to be woken, fucking 3 hours later. awake again at 8, i start things this time. with love of the feeling, the only one i can touch anymore.